More than a month since my last post and an unbelievable amount of things has happened. i survived working ridiculous hours at work, transferred to another branch, attempted to get myself certified for sales of securities products, went to melaka, started our kickboxing lessons. Man, i can’t recall more but i was sure there were much much more!
In this job, many times i feel that i don’t have much time for myself to take a break and just relax. Working hours are so long, so unpredictable with the company coming up with trainings, meetings, & whatever compulsory events at their whims and fancy. Sometimes it’s just so unfair that they expect us to be free all the time after our working hours to attend such events.
Still recall during the MT training, the trainers mentioned that those who are attached will become single and those who are single will remain single.
It’s tough to maintain a relationship when your other half doesnt understand that things really do crop up last minute and we don’t have a choice to not be part of it. I’m glad i’ve someone by my side that will travel down to meet me despite the horrific traffic on the expressway, willing to wait to catch a bite despite gastric juices flooding his stomach. No he doesn’t shower me with pretty flowers and saccharine sweet chocs (quietly he knows it’s bad for my waist) but he showers me with the tlc that touches me so much more.
Caught in our hectic lives, we over look many small details in our lifes that can bring about true happiness and pleasure. Sadly,the people closest around us are those that we really take for granted. We take for granted that they will always be there waiting for us. But how long will they be there? No one knows for sure, but instead of waiting for that day to happen before you regret it, why not start doing things that u know you will never regret.
Ok i don’t know what’s gotten into me getting so emotional about this but i guess in the past month so many things has happened i was not able to even have time to take a deep breath and think about life. And now that i’m right in front of the pc i’m just overwhelm.
Parting note, excerpts from a stupid chain email goes;
I ran into a stranger as he passed by, “Oh excuse me please” was my reply.
He said, ” Please excuse me too; I wasn’t watching for you.”
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.
But at home a different story was told, how we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal, my son stood very still beside me.
When i turned in nearly knocked him down.
“Get out of the way,” I said with a frown.
He walked away, his heart broken. I didn’t realise how harshly I’d spoken.
While I lay awake in bed, God’s still small voice came to me and said,
“While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use, but the family you love, seem to abuse. Go and look on the kitchen floor, You’ll find some flowers there by the door. Those are the flowers he brought for you. He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue. He stood very still not to spoil the surprise, you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.”
By this time, I felt very small, and now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed; ‘Wake up, little one, wake up,’ I said. ‘
Are these the flowers you picked for me?’ He smiled, ‘I found ’em, out by the tree. I picked ’em because they’re pretty like you. I knew you’d like ’em, especially the blue.’
I said, ‘Son, I’m very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn’t have yelled at you that way.’ He said, ‘Oh, Mom, that’s okay.
I love you anyway.’
I said, ‘Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue.’
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.